cold weather

i am loving this weather. its fantastic!
i just wish that we could get a free day off
b/c of the snow. unfortunately it doesn't look like
its going to rain. which means no snow. boo.

i really dont think ive ever seen it get so cold here.
i am loving it though. i think justin is really thinking hard about
taking steps to move back home. it would be incredibly hard.
first off we would have to sell our house and get a profit off of it which
is extremely hard b/c of the market. also we have to get jobs that hopefully would
pay similar to what we make now. which is not only difficult but impossible
where we are from. i know we can't make what we make here but it would be nice to only take a 5% pay cut. the cost of living up there is different.

justin and i spent a week at home over christmas and i think its still fresh on his mind. i know i want to move home more than anything but im just waiting for when its supposed to happen. i think we are here for a reason and i hope whatever its for
we are fufilling our purpose here. it would be a relieve though to start over with a new house i mean. i love our house i just think it would be cool to start over and we know so much more about purchasing homes now that we have done it.

i pray from time to time over this. i wonder if i did move home i would later regret it. justin expressed to me on monday that he knows that he doens't see his kids growing up here. i dont know. we will see. i just have to keep the faith and keep pressing on. when im here its not so bad. i get busy with work and church and friends and i dont think about home. but i do miss my fam and goign home after christmas was hard. when i walked into our house that night it didn't feel like home.

it gets better with time but then again it doesn't. i got really home sick right around our wedding. we will never know people down here like we do at home and we had people that gave us such a out pour of love and support when we did get married.

i dont know what im doing here, but i wish that if i had the opportunity one day if ever it would show itself to us and that it would just happen.